Who Am I When Everything is Unstable?
December 10, 2007 was the day my world felt like it was coming to an end. That was the day my Grandmother went to be with the Lord. Anyone that really knows me knows that she was my everything. Yes, I was spoiled, Yes, I was the apple of her eye and could do no wrong. Soon after her unexpected passing I would hear people whispering, "What will Cierra do now? Will she be able to survive without the woman that always gave her everything without having to work for it?" Years had gone by and I started to feel like those people were right. At that point in my life, I still haven't completed school, I moved from place to place and I worked a different job every year. I was very unstable.
Through out my life, my grandmother was my support system, my cheerleader and my prayer warrior. One day I looked up and she was gone. I suddenly felt all alone. Even family members felt like strangers. I had no one to confide in but the Lord. During those moments alone I meditated on this one scripture that I still hold dear to my heart, which is Psalm 46:10. It states "Be still and know that I am God."
2012 was the year that I decided I had enough. I was tired. Tired of starting something but not seeing it all the way through. I finally made up in my mind that I’m going to get focused and accomplish my goal for myself and not for other people. That year I met the man of my dreams Orlandis, who will be my husband this coming May. Not only did he encourage me, and help build me up, but he also instilled in me the love and strength that I needed to become a successful woman of God. As of today, not only am I a full time Federal Government employee but by May 2016 I will become a CCBC Graduate and Wife within a matter of days.
When you put your trust in the Lord He will give you the desires of your heart.