Who Am I When Everything is Transitioning?
Transition- the process or a period of changing from one state or condition to another.
When I go through major changes I become distant and very sensitive to everything around me. I'm very observant of how people treat me and what they say around me. I often feel like an outsider because it seems "in my head at times" that nobody else is going through what I'm going through. I feel like an outsider because I think people wouldn't understand. I become so sensitive that at any moment I can start tearing up.
I am currently in a major transition in my life and it's scary because I do not know what lies ahead. I'm going to be transparent. I just moved into my mother's house a week ago. I've felt mentally and emotionally defeated for weeks. I absolutely love my mother. I am just used to being on my own. Decisions I made in my past is forcing me to not be able to live on my own in order to accomplish my goals. I'm not sure how long it will take to accomplish my goal; however, I am truly grateful that i do have family support.
I know everything will be alright. I know things will work out for my good. Romans 8:28. Travis Greene song 'Intentional' entered my life at the right time.
God answers prayers and I have faith.
Speaking of God answering prayers, I prayed early this year to become more knowledgeable about His Word. God has truly shown up over the past 2 months. I've been in my Word more than ever and I feel myself transitioning into becoming the woman He wants me to be. It's not easy at all. I've been taught things all my life but rarely studied on my own. I'm becoming more aware of my faith.
I'm going through a major spiritual transition while dealing with a major physical and mental transition. I've been distant. I have shut down some days and just mentally checked out from the world. Sometimes I don't eat and other times I don't care what I eat. I'm currently so sensitive to worldly things and drama. Situations easily bother me. Society accepts so much these days that I sometimes feel like being in a bubble. I feel like an outsider.
I have to constantly remind myself to hold on to my favorite scripture Matthew 5:16~Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.
Even though I'm going through major transitions, I'm trying my best to have the best attitude and make others around me smile.
I appreciate everyone who reached out to me during these times. God strategically placed certain people in my life to speak encouragement and be supportive while I'm going through. They are not always the same people during every trial but He provides the right people for the right circumstances.